If...

...if I had my druthers, life is put to a halt at this instant, played in rewind and I shall fix everything that I should have.
But the universe does not work that way... there's no other way but forward.
And I'm learning, unfortunately in agony; of how life should have or could have been if I've had treated it differently.

In the name of Allah, most gracious, most merciful

By (the token of) time, (through the ages)

Verily, Man is in loss

Except, such as have Faith, and do righteous deeds,

and (join together) in the mutual teaching of Truth, and of Patience and Constancy

Surah Al-Asr